 
 
 
 
Erica Fields Narrator   Andrea Jenkins Interviewer 
 
 
 
 
 
The Transgender Oral History Project Tretter Collection in GLBT Studies University of Minnesota 
September 8, 2015 
 
 
 
  

  
 
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Andrea Jenkins -AJ 1 
Erica Fields -EF 2 
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AJ:  Hello, my name is Andrea Jenkins and this is the Transgender Oral History Project at the Tretter 5 Collection at the University of Minnesota.  Todays date is September 8, 2015, and Im here with 6 Erica and Im going to ask if you would mind stating your full name, your preferred gender 7 pronouns, your gender identity, and your gender assigned at birth. 8 
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EF: My name is Erica Fields.  I identify as female.  I go by pronouns of she and her and my gender 10 assigned at birth was male.   11 
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AJ: Erica, can you tell me about your earliest memory?   13 
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EF: Of being trans? 15 
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AJ: Earliest memory, period.   17 
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EF: Interestingly enough I always, as a child, had a dream about being in a crib in a hospital and my 19 parents and my siblings were leaving and I was having to stay behind.  I always thought it was a 20 dream, but when I was 14 months old I had my appendix taken out and Im convinced now that 21 this really was a memory and that it was because I was so young that it kind of translated itself 22 as a dream.   23 
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AJ: Wow, thats fascinating.  You healed well, apparently. 25 
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EF: Oh yes, I survived.   27 
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AJ: Tell me a little bit about your home environment  your siblings and . . .? 29 
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EF: Growing up? 31 
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AJ: Yeah, where did you grow up/ 33 
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EF: We grew up in Edina.  My parents adopted all four of us, they couldnt have children.  My 35 mother was on the board of Catholic Charities and they decided to build a family through 36 adoption.  I was the third of four, I had an older sister, an older brother, and then a younger 37 sister.  We had a pretty good . . . it was a good home life.  We were raised Catholic and went to a 38 Catholic grade school with the nuns.  In fact, I remember before the nuns got rid of their habits, 39 they had the whole habit and all you could see was their face and when I was in 2nd or 3rd grade I 40 kept thinking, I wonder whats behind that?  Is there hair?  That was really funny.  But no, we 41 had a really good home life.  My parents really kind of . . . they were pretty open about our 42 background as adopted kids.  We celebrated an adoption anniversary every year  it was called 43 our Chosen Day.   44 
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AJ: For each child? 46 
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EF: For all four of us together. 2 
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AJ: All four  OK. 4 
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EF: It was all four on the oldest adoption anniversary  so its October 16th.  Wed get dressed up 6 and wed have a small gift, nothing fancy but it was really heartfelt, and then wed go out to 7 dinner.  It was really fun. 8 
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AJ: Very nice.  Are your parents still alive now?   10 
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EF: No, my mother passed away in 1999 and my father passed away in 2008.   12 
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AJ: So you went to a Catholic school?   14 
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EF: Yes. 16 
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AJ: Which are known to be pretty strict institutions.  What was that experience like for you?   18 
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EF: In hindsight, and its quite some time ago now, I enjoyed it.  I had friends, I always got in trouble.  20 My daughter went to the same school and when she was in kindergarten, we were meeting with 21 the kindergarten teacher and I was looking around the room, which happened to be where I had 22 gone to 1st grade and 8th grade, they switched the rooms.  And I told the teacher, I said, I think 23 Ive washed every window in this place at least once because of all my detention.   24 
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AJ: Oh boy.  So they were pretty tough on you? 26 
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EF: Yeah, but you know it was . . . we had a really good group of nuns, they were very, very open, 28 they were focused on education.  They werent as tough as . . . probably in the 1950s.   29 
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AJ: Sure.  Did you experience any bullying or any teasing as a kid? 31 
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EF: I got a lot of teasing because I was a little bit different.  I didnt really fully understand . . . I knew 33 that this was a part of me but I had no idea what it was.  I had plenty of friends but I always felt 34 like I wasnt really a part of any group.  So, there was some teasing.  I got along with everybody 35 but yeah, there was some teasing.  It wasnt bullying, per se, I dont think.   36 
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AJ: Tell me about the first time that you realized that you were not the gender you were assigned at 38 birth? 39 
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EF: I dont know the exact age but it was probably about eight or ten years old.  I would go into my 41 mothers room when she was at bridge club or something and I would go in her drawers and pull 42 out her clothes and just get dressed.  I just had this feeling that why cant I be wearing these 43 clothes, why cant I be a girl?  At around the same time Id be at school and all the girls had the 44 uniforms . . . well, we all had the uniforms but I just loved the girls little jumpers and I just . . . I 45 wanted to go in the girls room and I wanted to be with the girls.  Again, this is in the early to 46 
mid-1960s, I had nowhere to turn.  I couldnt understand it.  The feelings were there but . . . my 1 parents caught me, probably when I was about 12 or 13.  I had taken a pair of panties from my 2 cousins house, brought them home and I would wear them  Id hide them under my bed and 3 my mother found them and wanted to know what was going on and whose were they.  I just 4 denied anything until it went away.  And then when they finally quit asking, I knew at that 5 moment that I really had to bury this.  I didnt know what it was, of course being raised in that 6 kind of a background I thought it was wrong, I felt guilty, I felt like it was something I had to be 7 ashamed of, and yet it was always there.  It was hard sometimes to think about it.   8 
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AJ: When did you discover the language for how you were feeling? 10 
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EF: You know, when I was probably in junior high I heard about Christine Jorgensen.  I was too 12 nervous to go to the movie  there was a movie, it was kind of a B movie, it wasnt that great.  I 13 didnt want to go because I just assumed everyone would look and say, Ah-ha, I know why that 14 person is at this movie.  And so I was aware of what it was and I kind of had this inkling that 15 might be something that is part of me, but it wasnt until really when Renee Richards, and that 16 was right around . . . toward the end of my college years, but when she was being vilified for 17 being this transsexual tennis player, I read Time Magazine and it was like snap, thats me.  18 And I just knew and really, really finally understood that was me.  But, I was scared to death.  I 19 just assumed theres no way I could do what she did, she lost everything  she lost family, she 20 lost friends.  I thought Ill deal with it  and I dealt with it with drugs and alcohol.  Fortunately, it 21 was in the early 1970s at that time and when I was in college casual use of drugs was pretty 22 prominent  and they werent as powerful back then, it wasnt like what you have today.  So it 23 was easy for me to mask my feelings, and clothing was somewhat less restrictive. 24 
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AJ: In the 1970s, yeah.   26 
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EF: Puffy sleeves and . . . 28 
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AJ: Long hair, bell bottoms.   30 
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EF: Exactly.  So there was kind of this gender-bending attitude within the culture at that time, so 32 that probably helped. 33 
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AJ: At least around clothes. 35 
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EF: Yes, right  right.   37 
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AJ: Where did you go to college? 39 
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EF: I went to Gonzaga University, which is in Spokane, Washington.  I actually had a really wonderful 41 experience there.  I spent my junior year in Italy, it was a junior-year abroad program that I was 42 really, really excited to do  it was fun. 43 
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AJ: You say Gonzay-ga, some people say Gonzaga.   45 
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EF: Its like you say tomay-to and I say tomato.   1 
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EF: I dont know why . . . I think there is probably no proper way of saying it, but I call it Gonzay-ga.   5 
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AJ: Theyve actually won a couple of . . .  7 
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EF: Tournaments  yeah, theyve done well. 9 
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AJ: NCAA basketball championships over the years. 11 
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EF: Yeah.  Theyre always good in basketball  actually, they had a really good baseball team too.  13 But I was a theatre major and they had a really neat theatre program.  I think, again, that was 14 something that helped me really cope with things because I got lost into the world of the 15 theatre.   16 
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AJ: And you can play make believe and . . .  18 
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EF: And I did when I was a kid.  We would have make believe and think we were on a deserted 20 island and I would wear the dress, I would be the mother or the female.  So yeah. 21 
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AJ: Thats interesting. 23 
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EF: I honed my acting skills at a young age.   25 
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AJ: I want to be sure we talk about your acting career in a little bit.  What terms do you use to 27 describe yourself now and has that changed over time? 28 
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EF: How do you mean?   30 
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AJ: So in terms of do you define yourself as a transsexual, a gender queer woman, a . . .? 32 
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EF: Well, you know, its interesting.  You know Leigh Smythe?   34 
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AJ: I do. 36 
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EF: A very good friend of mine as well.  Leigh and I had a lot of conversations about this. 38 
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AJ: She spells her name L-e-i-g-h. 40 
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EF: Leigh  yes.   42 
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EF: And Leigh and I came up with the idea, because I identify as a woman, but I also am proud of my 1 transgender history.  So she says, Maybe what we should do when we describe who we are to 2 people is say, I am a woman with transgender history.  Which is a nice way of putting it 3 because if youve moved beyond . . . and thats one of the issues that you see in the trans 4 community is it is a transitory, transitional thing  there are now a lot of people, younger people 5 today, stay in that middle ground or they have a real fluid gender identity.   6 
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EF: But I think people my age and older people, we went from one gender to another and so thats a 10 way of expressing it.  But Im very proud of the fact that I transitioned and became who I am.   11 
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AJ: So, a woman of transgender history.   13 
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EF: Yes.   15 
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AJ: OK.  Ive heard a lot of people talk about a woman or man of transgender experience, so thats 17 very similar.   18 
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EF: Yeah. 20 
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AJ: What challenges have you faced since expressing your true gender identity? 22 
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EF: Well, being older, I started my transition at 53 . . .  24 
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AJ: Had you ever come out to anybody prior to that? 26 
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EF: Actually I had told one psychologist.  I went to therapy in the 1990s, probably 1992 or 1993, and 28 it was the first time I had mentioned wearing womens clothes and the therapist was, Well, 29 youre probably . . . youre needing something in your life and you can pick positive things or 30 negative things, and youre filling your cup with something negative and you need to find 31 something positive to fill your cup with.  I thought, Oh, OK.  And you listen to a shrink and so I 32 made the assumption that this is something I can figure out how to alleviate. 33 
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EF: So, within a year or so I met my second wife  we fell in love and all of a sudden the feelings 37 went away and I thought, You know, that shrink knew what he was talking about.  And then 38 within a couple of years of marriage, all of those feelings started coming back.  That kind of 39 started this spiral downward for me of, you know, do I really even want to survive?  Do I even 40 really want to worry about this anymore or think about . . .?  I kept it very, very quiet and I only 41 dressed when I was out of town.  But I wasnt careful anymore.  My habits to try and alleviate 42 the feelings were pretty negative.  So my second wife discovered my secret but I had never told 43 anyone.  She found a pair of panties in my home office.  I called her from a business trip to let 44 her know Id checked in OK and she said, You know, I found these in your office and theyre not 45 mine, theyre not our daughters, my step-daughters, whose are they?  And Im totally 46 expecting that she thought I would say theyre some other womans.  I have no idea where it 1 came from, but I just said, Theyre mine.  And it was like with that, this huge weight . . . I dont 2 mean to be clich but there was like this sense of relief that even though, from that point on, I 3 had a long road to go, there was such a sense . . . 4 
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EF: Yeah, exactly.  And she was pretty . . . I know she was taken aback, and wed had a rocky 8 marriage and a lot of it was, in hindsight, my secret.  She sensed that there was something I was 9 keeping from her and, for me, it was something Id kept from everybody all my life. 10 
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EF: Yes, many times.  There was periods of time that I would not think about it, deny it and try and 14 purge it.  But yeah, I didnt tell anyone and no one else really knew other than my ex  she 15 discovered it.   16 
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AJ: How long did you guys stay together after that?   18 
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EF: Not long.  We were already kind of rocky and I think she had already tried to figure out an exit 20 strategy.  I could sense just in the way she was . . . she didnt want to go on business trips with 21 me anymore if it was something where couples went.  The marriage was not going to last 22 anyway and this became . . . actually, about six months  or not even that.  That was in 23 November of 2007.  In July or August 2007, she walked into my home office and I was watching 24 some pornography, it was trans pornography, and it freaked her out.  And, of course, shes really 25 laying into me and Im going back to my old habit of trying to deny it until it goes away and 26 finally I just blurted out, I want to be her.  And she stopped and walked out.  Thats when 27 things really . . . wed had a rocky marriage most of the marriage because of the secret and 28 everything, but thats when I really started to sense that she was trying to figure out how to get 29 out, so this was her out.  We divorced two years later . . . we started the process, we went 30 through mediation and then we had a lawyer draft everything up.  Like a lot of people in our 31 situation, I gave her everything  I was very, very generous because I felt that I caused this and 32 Id given her a vow of being her husband and here I am now becoming myself.  So, you know, in 33 a way I look back and think I fell into that trap of . . .  34 
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AJ: Guilty . . .  36 
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EF: Yeah, feeling guilty and just saying, Whatever you want, Im never going to need it anyway.  38 That was probably the toughest period.  Plus, my family  my father was old, he was 88 or 89  39 years old  in fact, he died in June of 2008, about seven months after I had come out.  So I told 40 my ex, I said, Look . . . and she wasnt close with my family at all.  I said, I dont care if you tell 41 your family, I dont care if you tell your friends or you try to lean on them for support, because 42 she needed support.  I said, Stay away from the business and stay away from my family.  43 Because without the business, youre in trouble too  so just stay away from it.  And she had no 44 problem  she wasnt really close to any of that.  It worked well for a while, even through my 45 dads funeral she didnt say anything and I presented as a male.  But then she . . . she went down 46 to a dock where we used to have a boat years ago and there was a guy at the dock from Cenex 1 Harvest States that I used to work with and she was talking to the dock owner and he said, I 2 hear youre getting divorced, whats going on?  She told him that I was transitioning.  And when 3 she left, he made to this guys boat and said, Youre never going to believe what I heard about 4 Fields.  Told him and . . . Im an international grain trader, I trade in Europe, I trade in Canada, I 5 trade in Mexico  within days, its on three continents.  Im hearing stuff back from Europe, 6 Hey, whats going on with you?  I had some time I wanted to try . . . I was working on a really 7 delicate plan to transition without losing my business.   8 
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EF: And this kind of accelerated it by about six months.  But it worked out, things worked out.   12 
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AJ: Wow.  So youre an international business person, self-employed. 14 
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EF: Yes. 16 
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AJ: Tell us a little bit about your business. 18 
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EF: Everyone loves what I do.  We sell rye, which is a small grain  they make rye bread out of it, but 20 they also make whiskey out of it and we sell rye to the distilleries to make whiskey.  My clients 21 include Jim Beam, Jack Daniels, Sazerac, Wild Turkey  pretty much all of the distilleries in 22 Kentucky that use rye buy it from us. 23 
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AJ: Sour mash. 25 
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EF: Sour mash  yes.  Its fun, and Ive loved getting to understand this industry for 40 years.  My 27 father was involved in it before me and my daughter came in in 2009 and that was . . . Im so 28 lucky and even though everyone says, What a well thought out plan, we were punting.  I had 29 had about a year of open contracts and I had that amount of time to figure out how in the hell I 30 was going to get my customers and everyone else to deal with this, or understand it.  So my 31 daughter, I came out to her in mid- to late-2007, like at Christmas time.  Early the next year she 32 said, Well what are you going to do with the business?  I said, You know, I have absolutely no 33 idea, this is all new.  Im already trying to figure it out.  And she said . . . she was recently out of 34 college, shed worked for EcoLab for about three years, and she said, Well, why dont I come to 35 work for you?  I thought, Wow.  She was late twenties at the time  28 or 29, and we 36 developed this plan  my business partners would provide all our financing, theyd wanted me 37 to have a succession plan for a number of years anyway.  So I went to them and said, Hey, my 38 daughter wants to come into the business, and they said, Oh great, this is perfect.  So we 39 sent her down there for some training for about six months and then I took her around to meet 40 all of the customers and, again, presenting as male, and then we elevated her to be the manager 41 of sales.  So she was the face of the company and would go on the trips.  I would talk to people 42 on the phone all the time, and I managed the risk, I bought the grain.  After the fiasco with the 43 guy with the boat, my partners found out and I explained to them what was going on and the 44 whole plan.  They thought it was a good plan.  So we pulled it off and within eight months, nine 45 months, I had come out to everyone.  I wrote a letter, I modified it for each person, and there 1 wasnt any pushback at all. 2 
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AJ: What was the general tone of the letter? 4 
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EF: Basically it explained . . . most of these people I knew as friends, we had intimate relationships. 6 
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EF: Right.  And so I could be very personal with them and what I basically said was, you know, I need 10 you to understand something that Im going through and I said that Im transgender and that Im 11 transitioning to the gender that I feel I should have been born as.  I did quote some statistics and 12 some information, I really went through the National Center for Transgender Equality site and 13 the HRC because a lot of these companies are on the HRC equality list so I kind of had 14 handicapped all of the customers to figure out - OK, who is going to be receptive, who do I have 15 to be really careful with, and it turned out all of them were pretty . . . because they were into 16 retail.  So theyre very high up on the HRC rating. 17 
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AJ: Equality index, I think they call it. 19 
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EF: Right, exactly.  But what was nice is I knew that they had that attitude in a corporate setting so 21 as a supplier they would be a little bit more open.  The good old boy network was pretty much 22 gone, there was only a couple of people left  and actually one of the people that we dealt with, 23 I came out to with a letter, but I never really saw him again.  Cara, my daughter, dealt with him.  24 He was a real southern redneck and I just think he couldnt handle it  but we did the business. 25 
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EF: No, so that was really good.  So thats . . . its a great business and its provided a lot.  Im able to 29 use it as a platform now for really . . . I dont vocally go out and push any kind of an agenda, but 30 all of these people who I interact with, they see me, they see a trans woman who is successful, 31 who is very comfortable in her own skin, who interacts very, very naturally with all of them.  So 32 it gives them an opportunity to feel comfortable with a trans woman.  So when theyre in a 33 situation where theres another trans woman, its kind of that silent education.  I feel good 34 about how thats worked.   35 
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AJ: Yeah, I think visibility is a really important aspect of keeping our movement going forward. 37 
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EF: And not hiding.  Exactly.  I dont hide.  I dont wear it on my sleeve, because no one likes that no 39 matter what it is.   40 
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AJ: Right, exactly. 42 
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EF: But I never hide it and I never hold it back.   44 
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AJ: Tell me a little bit about your daughter.  She came in and took over your business.  Is she your 1 biological daughter? 2 
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EF: Yes, I was married twice.  The first marriage resulted in three children  a daughter, the oldest, 4 and then two sons.   5 
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AJ: So shes OK with it, how are your sons? 7 
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EF: Theyre actually quite good.  My middle son, the oldest boy, when I first told him . . . theyre all 9 pretty liberal, and actually my daughter when I came out to her, she said, Well, you know, you 10 and mom raised us with a pretty open mind about diversity so this is what you get.  And I 11 thought, Well, I guess I did all right.  But my son, he was very touching  he said, Look, 12 intellectually I can get my arms around it, but emotionally its going to take me some time.  And 13 we had, at this table, because he lived about three blocks away at the time, hed come over and 14 wed have dinner and after two hours of talking and debating and arguing and tears flying . . . it 15 was very, very emotionally challenging for both of us, but we worked through it.  I think we 16 came away with a much stronger relationship and he was just over at our house about two 17 weeks ago for dinner and it was fantastic.  And the youngest son, hes a musician, hes going to 18 school out in New York, he plays cello.  Hes in a crowd thats pretty open, diverse, and 19 everything else.  So, it didnt really seem to bother him that much.  Were pretty close. 20 
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AJ: Oh good.  So your children relationships are still pretty much all intact? 22 
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EF: Yeah, I lost one  my stepdaughter.  We had a good thing going and I lost contact with her for 24 about eight months.  I dont know what was going on  I kept sending her notes and Christmas 25 and birthdays and everything else, actually I just got a letter this weekend.  She said in the letter 26 that she forgives me and that shes found the Lord, shes kind of a born-again Christian, and she 27 feels that she cant move forward with her life unless she deals with her anger and everything 28 over what I went through.  Which is odd, because for the three or four years that she was going 29 to college, which I was giving her the support for, she was great.  She and her boyfriend would 30 come over for dinner, we got along great.  So Im a little puzzled . . . 31 
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EF: Oh yeah, I was living as Erica.  And she was wonderful, she was very supportive.  She met 35 Patience  she was here for our wedding, we got married in this condo and all four of the kids 36 were here.  I dont know.  She moved back to Omaha where her mother was and where her 37 cousins and everything and I know that there was a lot of anger in that family . . .  38 
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AJ: Bitterness, yeah. 40 
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EF: And so I think she just took it on.  But I trust someday shell be back because shes got a good 42 heart, shes beautiful.  I still love her. 43 
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AJ: Absolutely.  What have been some of the more positive aspects of expressing your true gender 45 identity? 46 
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EF: Well actually everything has been relatively positive.  Ive been very fortunate.  My family has 2 been good.  I think, for me . . . well, I wrote a piece, I think you heard it  Jaime Ann did it in the 3 Naked I called Congruity.   4 
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AJ: Congruity? 6 
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EF: Yes.  It was about my experience, shortly after my SRS surgery, when all of a sudden I was having 8 dinner with Ellie Krug.  Ellie and I were having dinner over at Loring Caf, which was packed, and 9 all my life when I was in a crowd I just felt edgy . . . I was afraid I was going to knock things over 10 and Id bump people, I just always had that feeling.  Well, I went to the womens room and I 11 came back, and when I came back and sat down I realized for the first time in my life I was able 12 to walk through this crowd and not even think about . . . all of a sudden I was just in sync.  And 13 so the positive thing for me was really in here.  I went through a lot of the processes to really 14 confirm my gender, but at the end of the day it was really about feeling comfortable as myself.  I 15 feel very comfortable about who I am now.  So, thats probably the most broad positive thing. 16 
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AJ: Thats fascinating.  Im glad you mentioned Ellen Krug and her new book, Getting to Ellen. 18 
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EF: Yeah, that was really . . . it was fun to read because a good section of that was when I knew her 20 when we were hanging out together so it was really fun to read.  I got to know her brother 21 pretty well and hes prominent in the book and a really, really wonderful guy.  So yeah, that was 22 really fun.  She focused on the book and literally fell off the face of the earth for a while because 23 she was so focused.  So I hadnt seen her for a couple of years when the book came out and 24 weve since gotten together two or three times for lunch.  Shes a wonderful person.  And I 25 guess activism, I mean I was always a very active person.  I voted in ten presidential elections.  I 26 was 18 the year 18-year-olds were given the right to vote, which was exciting.   27 
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EF: 1972.  And so I voted for McGovern, that was my first election and he got creamed by Nixon.  31 But I looked at when the Obama re-election came up a few years ago, I have voted in 10 32 elections  I voted for four Republicans, four Democrats, and two Independents.  I cant believe 33 it.  I was going back and going, Oh my God, its right down the middle.   34 
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EF: And I didnt vote for any of the real biggies like Reagan or Clinton, I didnt vote for either of 38 them.  But I was somewhat active in college but now Ive really found a voice in the trans 39 community.  Im involved in a number of organizations. 40 
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AJ: Really?  Which ones? 42 
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EF: Yeah, theres Gender Justice. 44 
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EF: And that is a non-profit, they do mainly . . . its not focused on LGBT but they do a lot of LGBT 2 work.  They were very involved in the passage of WESA, the Womens Employment and Security 3 Act, here in the state of Minnesota.  And theyve represented several trans people, the woman 4 who was working at Northwest Bible College or whatever, who they wanted to fire because she 5 had transitioned, they were representing her.  They represented a number of . . .  6 
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EF: And then Im on the board of Quorum.  Quorum is the Twin Cities GLBT Chamber of Commerce 14 and Ive really enjoyed that  and working with the NGLCC, which is the National Gay Lesbian 15 Chamber of Commerce. 16 
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EF: NGLCC, right.   20 
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AJ: OK.  And its the National Gay Lesbian Chamber of Commerce.   22 
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EF: Yes.  And they certify GLBT-owned businesses, so we got certified and a lot of our customers are 24 now able to plug us in their diverse supplier.   25 
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AJ: There you go  a win-win for everybody.   27 
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EF: Absolutely, its cool.  So Ive really found a voice, and then probably the greatest thing is getting 29 married again.  I met a woman, Patience.  We were friends for a number of years before we 30 really got together.  I met her after I had come out but before I finished my transition.  And all of 31 a sudden we found ourselves in a position where we were now kind of a friend-date with 32 another friend, and we fell in love.  It was the first relationship Ive ever had where there was no 33 secret. 34 
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AJ: No secret  you could be your full self. 36 
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EF: Yeah, I was totally honest.  Totally.  And it felt so good.  Its been an amazing relationship.  We 38 spend almost all our time together.  We travel together.  She had a career as a marketing person 39 for the Star Tribune, she was an independent contractor.  And when the Strib, and all other 40 newspapers, were struggling, she hadnt had a contract for a while.  So I just said, Well, why 41 dont we just be together and you can come . . .  She helps me out quite a bit.  In fact, shes 42 going to do some lists for us here after harvest this year.  So she stayed busy a little bit with 43 that, but just being together has been great. 44 
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EF: Thank you.  We got married on August 22nd of 2013. 2 
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AJ: So you talked about this a little bit, but lets hear a little bit about the medical interventions that 12 youve undergone  if youre comfortable. 13 
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EF: Sure, sure.  As you know, I was involved in a film.  So basically everyone gets a chance to see 15 more of me than I did.   16 
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EF: Trans, the movie  its a beautiful film, it really is. 20 
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EF: It chronicles the lives of a number of trans people, but I . . . its interesting because when I first 24 started going to therapy, my ex asked how far I was going to go and I honestly didnt know.  I 25 said, I have no idea.  I didnt know at that time that I would go to the lengths that I did to 26 become myself, or if I needed to.  I just didnt know.  For the first time I think I was approaching 27 something with a clean slate  without a projection of, OK, heres going to be my path.  It was 28 like, Lets see what happens and when I come to a point where I feel comfortable and I stay 29 there or whether I keep going.  I continued on and once I got on hormone replacement therapy 30 in 2008, the sense of relief, the sense of comfort, of being relaxed and fulfilled really, really 31 grew.  And thats when I knew that I needed to go further and ultimately become physically a 32 woman.  I found a great surgeon.  I decided on Christine McGinn, out in New Hope, 33 Pennsylvania.   34 
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EF: M-c-G-i-n-n.  Shes actually a trans woman herself.   38 
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EF: But what I liked about her is shes very, very proactive from a medical standpoint.  The 42 preparation for surgery was very intense and I was at an age where I felt my risks were higher 43 than if I were younger, so I wanted to make sure I had someone that was focused on the 44 preparation.  I quit smoking long before, I smoked a little, but I quit smoking completely about a 45 year before surgery  or eight months, I guess.  I quit drinking for about a month before, she 46 said, I want you off alcohol for a month, and then she had a real structured regiment going in 1 and then her follow-up was amazing.  I went out there three times afterwards, the last time was 2 an annual.  But she was really neat.  Before she transitioned shed been a flight surgeon cleared 3 for a shuttle flight.  I dont think she ever went on it but she was cleared. 4 
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EF: Yeah.  Shes an interesting person.  Shes in the film, so if you get a chance . . . well, I gave you a 8 copy. 9 
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EF: Anyway, it was interesting because when I woke up after the surgery, Im pretty drugged up but 13 I really felt like something had happened.  I just felt really, really good about everything.  The 14 following year I . . . I waited for another year to have breast enhancement because I wanted to 15 make sure the hormones had done pretty much all they could because I didnt want to overdo 16 it.  It happens.  So, yeah  I went through everything and Im really glad I did.  I really feel now, 17 like physically Im where I should have been to begin with. 18 
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AJ: Thats awesome, thank you for sharing that.  Its so personal but I appreciate your willingness.  20 Has there been a specific person that had an impact on you related to your gender identity?  I 21 know you talked about Renee Richards a little bit.   22 
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EF: You know, the first time that I went out in public as myself was in 2008 I went to the Chicago Be-28 All, which was a conference that then occurred every . . . I think it was right after Memorial Day, 29 the week after.   30 
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EF: Yes.  When it started it was mainly cross dressers and trans folks, but at that time a lot of the 34 people that were going out were basically cross dressers, many of whom were trans as well but 35 they didnt really . . .  36 
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EF: Right.  So kind of the premise of the conference was . . . there were a lot of vendors that sold 40 everything from breast forms to different hip things  you name it. 41 
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EF: Oh yeah.  But I went down there and I had never been out in public as myself  ever.  So I drove 45 down to Chicago and I check into the hotel the night before and Im in my room and Im just 46 kind of hanging out.  The next morning I get dressed and Im nervous as hell.  Ive got a wig on 1 and I walk out of my room and I walk to the elevators and I push the button.  As I push the 2 button I hear a bunch of commotion coming down the hall  its a whole bunch of construction 3 workers, because they were doing renovations, and I was scared to death.  I ran back to my 4 room and I went in and my heart was going crazy and I was like, Oh, I cant do this, I cant do 5 this.  Finally, I went down the back stairs and I went down and all of a sudden Im in a room 6 with a whole bunch of mes  a lot of people just like me.  I ended up meeting four or five 7 women and we hung out.  I went to five Be-Alls and they were always there and we would get 8 together and it was really fun.  A few of them actually came up here.  I did Kate Bornsteins 9 show, Hidden Agenda, a few years ago and two of the women I got to know at the Be-All came 10 up to see it.  In fact, right after I get back from my trip, one of the women is coming up here and 11 were going to have a weekend together  it will be fun.  12 
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EF: So influence was probably those women who had been there before.  Actually most of them 16 were cross dressers and still identify as cross dressers, but it was really kind of that special first 17 time out and really starting to feel comfortable as yourself.  So thats a big influence.  After I 18 came out and started therapy and was beginning my transition, I read a lot.  Julia Serano, Kate 19 Bornstein, Jenny Boylan  you know, pretty much everything you could. 20 
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EF: Yes.  In fact it was really kind of neat because Kate Bornsteins book, Gender . . . what is it? 24 
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EF: Yes, Gender Outlaws.  In the middle of it is a play called, Hidden Agender and I was so excited 28 and lucky to get a chance to play the role that was based on her in a production of it here 29 locally.   30 
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EF: Yeah, it was really neat.   34 
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EF: Yes, that was a great segue.  Yes, Ive been a theatre person since I was in high school.   38 
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AJ: In high school  what are some other productions that youve been a part of  both pre-40 transition and post-? 41 
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EF: Well Ive been very fortunate to have played a lot of my dream roles.  Probably one of the best 43 was in 2005 I played George in Of Mice and Men and it was an amazing, amazing cast, one of the 44 best productions Ive been in.  I played Petruchio in The Taming of the Shrew.  I played Anselme, 45 the miser, in The Miser.   46 
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EF: I had lead roles, a lot of lead roles.  And Ive directed a lot. I did a lot of childrens shows that I 4 directed.  So Ive had a lot of fun with it. 5 
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EF: Some of them were and some of them werent.  The one that I did Of Mice and Men was called 9 The Phipps and its in Hudson.  Its on a par with . . . they get great, great directors from the 10 Twin Cities and they get a lot of good actors from the Twin Cities. 11 
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EF: They dont pay their actors but its considered a professional quality theatre.  But, I get paid to 15 direct over there.  So I had a really good experience and a pretty good resume.  When I started 16 transitioning I thought, OK, thats it.  And that last year . . . 17 
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EF: Exactly.  Id go from being at an age, as a male, where all the roles are just being handed to you, 21 to being a middle-aged, overweight woman who cant even find a part.  But thats when I met 22 Claire Avitabile.  They were doing the original Naked I and I was in my therapists office and I 23 saw a post card for it and said, Whats that?  She said, Oh, its a play that theyre going to be 24 doing, you might want to look at it. So I grabbed a post card and I saw it and I thought, Wow, 25 Ive got to go.  So I ended up buying tickets for two performances and one of them Ellen Krug 26 and I went to together.  It was at the Old Bedlam Theatre, which was a bar  in fact, ironically, it 27 used to be called Knickerbockers . . .  28 
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EF: And the owner of Knickerbockers was an incredibly close friend of mine, we used to work 32 together, and I helped him build that deck up on the top back in the 1980s.   33 
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EF: Yeah, we had a lot of parties there.  But anyway, it was the Bedlam Theatre at this point.  So 37 Claire was doing tickets, she was doing everything and I introduced myself and we hit it off and 38 talked.  The show was absolutely amazing and I thought, God, maybe there is life after 39 transition in the theatre.  And Claire came to me about a year later, eight months later, and 40 said, Were doing a production and Id like you to audition.  So I auditioned and I was lucky 41 enough to get cast in Anon, which was a really acclaimed production.  There were 10 women 42 who did monologues as a part of a support group for partners of sex addicts.  So I had one of the 43 monologues.  Two things came out of it.  One was the first chance to be a woman on the stage; 44 the second was an incredibly close relationship with 10 or 11 women, 12 women.  We had a 45 slumber party towards the end of the run and I went and it was my first slumber party. 46 
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EF: Yeah.  And they all knew it and they made it real special.  We had a ball.  We all sat around and 4 we drank beer, we just had fun, ate popcorn, watched stupid movies. 5 
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EF: No, we didnt do our nails, but it was really, really fun.  So I got these experiences through that 9 and then I was also part of an actors studio run by Lev Mailer called Lev Mailers Actors Studio.   10 
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EF: Yes.  He was a pretty well-known actor in LA.  He was actually the secretary of the Screen Actors 14 Guild and he ran some studios out there.  He was a well-known character in a couple of episodes 15 of the original Star Trek, he was in Hogans Heroes, he was in a lot of those old shows.  He 16 started in New York but his wife was from Wisconsin, so when he retired he came back here and 17 started teaching.  I was in his studio for about four years before I transitioned and then when I 18 transitioned, I asked if I could come back to the studio, because I had quit for a while, and they 19 were all excited to have me back.  So I went back for about three years and Lev was really cool.  20 He said, You know what?  Im going to give you some scenes to do with some of the classic 21 characters, women characters, in shows, in plays, and give you an opportunity to kind of stretch 22 and learn these.  Hedda Gabler . . . I cant remember the rest of them.  Hedda was probably one 23 of the best parts I played.  Just amazing parts.  He said, Look, this is an opportunity for you to 24 grow as a woman as well.   25 
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EF: From that experience, because my biggest fear was I was going to have to re-learn acting skills 29 because I was now a woman and I had always been a man before. 30 
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EF: What I found out was my performances were totally honest, there was a filter that was no 34 longer there.  Everything I had done before, even if it was some of my best work, in essence was 35 a woman playing a man and now I was a woman . . .  36 
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EF: Yeah.  Some of my studio mates, wed do a scene and theyd come up and say, Wow, thats the 40 best stuff weve ever seen you do.  And thats because it was coming from here and there 41 wasnt a filter anymore.   42 
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AJ: Tell me a little bit about what do you think the relationship between the L, the G, and the B is to 21 the T community, in your own experience.  You talked a lot, like Quorum  its a gay, lesbian 22 organization and Gender Justice doesnt really have . . . so Im just curious, what do you think 23 about the relationship between those communities? 24 
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EF: My experience has been positive with gays and lesbians.  Im married to a woman and she has 26 been very confirming of my gender as a woman and my sexual identity, or orientation, as 27 lesbian.   28 
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EF: I identify as lesbian so I have kind of a connection within the lesbian community.  But I also 32 recognize, and my wife . . . my wife got shunned to a great extent by the lesbian community.  33 Not a horrible shunning but the sense of separation because a lot of people in the lesbian 34 community dont view us trans women as women.   35 
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EF: My experience with gay men, because I knew a lot of them before transitioning, has been pretty 39 good.  But I think theres . . . because were an identity and not an orientation, I guess you might 40 want to say, there is a difference.  In certain respects, like marriage equality, that really didnt 41 have . . . other than gay and lesbian trans people, it didnt have a lot to do with trans people.  42 Dont Ask Dont Tell was the same thing, although now theyre allowing openly trans people to 43 serve in the military.  But yeah, I think theres a little bit of a disconnect.  I started transitioning 44 and started understanding the trans community after a lot of the stuff that had gone down 45 before with the HRC and everything else.  In fact, prior to my transitioning, in 2007 when I came 1 out, I had never actually met a trans person.   2 
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EF: Exactly.  So I was aware and, of course, I was watching these really, really . . . now I look back 10 and I think its so exploitive, whatever that word is  excuse me, but the trans porn and all of 11 that.  But I watched a lot of that because it allowed me to really see people like me.  But I think 12 the LGB have, I think theyve come a long way, but I think theres still that sense that theyre 13 different.  I get along just great with the people at Quarum, again part of it is because Im a 14 business person  its a business persons thing.  So the orientation is there only because of our 15 attempts to try and create . . . 16 
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EF: Right, exactly.  I went to the HRC dinner a few years back in Washington and we had a trans 20 table, Amanda Simpson was at it - shes a really good friend of one of my friends out east.  So it 21 was a . . . 22 
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EF: Id met Amanda because she was on the board of NCTE for a number of years and Id met her 30 through Mara Keisling, because I was fairly active in the NCTE for a few years and Marcus 31 Waterbury, who is a local trans guy, was the chairperson.  And so, we had this table and I think 32 there were two or three trans tables, as it were.  We got along with everybody but theres this 33 separation.  Its kind of like when you go to a picnic, a family picnic, and this family is over here 34 and this family is over here and yeah, they play wiffle ball together but then they go back to 35 their little table and have their meal. 36 
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EF: I dont think there is.  I think the transgender community has really come together in trying to 42 work towards equality, but I dont see it as an agenda per se. I personally dont really like the 43 word agenda because it . . . I think for people who are attempting to try and educate about a 44 community, the word agenda is a negative.  I think you hear about, Oh, its a gay agenda.  If 45 truth be told, yes  everybody has an agenda, but the reality, I think, for the trans community is 46 that weve been able to learn a little bit by those who have gone before us.  I do think the trans 1 community tends to be a little bit overly sensitive.  I understand why, but Im not sure it really 2 serves us well because I think having spent most of my time with straight people, mainly 3 business people, they dont like things being pushed . . . they wont turn around and say, Ah, 4 you know what?  Yeah, theyre right.  What theyre going to do is push back.  So I think having 5 certain kinds of activism, I think are counterproductive.  I think Caitlyn Jenner is . . . I think her 6 heart is in the right place.  Shes going to stumble, but I think shes really focused on trying to do 7 a good thing.  Shes surrounded herself with some very, very solid advisors, including Jenny 8 Boylan.  I think LaVerne Cox has done a tremendous amount of good things for the trans 9 community.  Janet Mock . . . theres so many people out there that are doing really good things, 10 but I dont see it as an agenda.  I see it more as an attempt to bring awareness to our 11 community.   12 
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AJ: Youre right, most transgender people.  What do you think about that narrative and are you 20 concerned that because . . . I mean, Caitlyn is now the most famous transgender person in the 21 world?   22 
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AJ: Do you think that that does damage to the image?  Now everybody thinks that if youre trans 26 then you have to have had all of this surgery, that you have to have done all of these things?   27 
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EF: Well yeah, I can understand that.  Actually Ive got a real interesting story about Caitlyn.  In 29 1976, I graduated from college and during the summer my family  my parents, my sister, and I, 30 were able to go, we were invited to Montreal for the Olympics and I spent about two weeks in 31 Montreal.  I went to see every single one of Bruce Jenners events.  I have pictures that I took . . .  32 
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EF: No, I didnt - I wish.  He was just a real hero and I always looked up to him.  So from that day 44 forward, I just really admired him.  I think what people lose sight of with Caitlyn Jenner is 45 regardless of her being trans, here is someone that has been in the spotlight, was named 46 Athlete of the Year back in 1976, and had to deal with that all then.  This obviously, this is a real 1 good test for people in the community and people outside the community, to see the reactions 2 to someone this famous coming out and being themselves.  I havent really followed . . . I 3 havent seen her E show.  I did listen to her acceptance speech at the ESPYs. 4 
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EF: To see how they treat her, even the people in the trans community and how they treat her.  It 17 gives us in the trans community an opportunity to embrace someone this famous and accept 18 them as a sister  and I hope we do.  I hope that she does some good for the community, but its 19 not about the community  its about that person, that individual, and their journey.  Of course 20 its different, but all of our journeys have been different.  I get worried that Caitlyn is going to 21 get hurt and going to be taken advantage of from a lot of different angles, but I have faith 22 because she was so amazing in 1976  I mean, it was absolutely amazing to watch that and to 23 read about it. 24 
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AJ: I just felt bad to know the sort of pain of feeling different from your physical reality and having 31 to walk around with that for 65 years  that is a very long time. 32 
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EF: Just as trans people tell people outside the community, you can empathize, you can sympathize, 17 you can support, but you cant understand because youre not one.  I was very, very fortunate as 18 a kid to have grown up with parents that were very open and my experience with African 19 Americans, with Black people, was started at a young age and I always felt comfortable.  But, I 20 dont know the experience.  Ive had really wonderful intellectual conversations with friends of 21 mine about what its like to feel profiled, about what its like to not have privilege.  Ive got a 22 little bit of that experience becoming a woman after being a male, but I do empathize and I do 23 feel that trans people of color have got a huge burden, or a huge obstacle to overcome.  I dont 24 know . . . I dont know what I can do other than be very supportive, but I think the whole idea 25 that all of these murders occur, and a lot of it is because I think, not just because theyre of 26 color, but theyre at a socio-economic level that puts them in danger to begin with. 27 
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EF: And then you throw on top of that, the people that theyre interacting with who are dangerous 31 anyway, have less of a skill set or an ability to deal with a trans person.  So I just think there are 32 so many things that kind of snowball in that situation. 33 
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AJ: And chief amongst them being trans like that . . . theres still a lot of discrimination, harassment, 39 just because youre transgender.  And then as a person of color with, like you mentioned, the 40 lower socio-economic backgrounds  all those issues come into play as well.   41 
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EF: I think thats something that we as a trans community should really dig . . . I mean all of us, not 43 just trans people of color, but all of the trans community should try and figure out a way to help 44 and to create less risk for them. 45 
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EF: Right.  The Minnesota Trans Health Coalition was a great organization and they dealt a lot with 15 trans people of color, I think they dealt a lot with trans youth that were being marginalized not 16 only in their lives but also in their living conditions and everything else.  And there needs to be a 17 lot more done.  We need more Reclaims, we need more outfits like that. 18 
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AJ: Wow, this has been just a joy to sit here and learn more about your life.  Weve known each 24 other a couple of years now, but you know, very rarely do you get a chance to really sit down 25 and have an in-depth conversation.  Is there anything else that you are burning to share with me 26 or with potential viewers?  And maybe let me phrase it to you like this, where do you see the 27 transgender community in 50 years?   28 
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EF: I think that the transgender community is going to be integrated into society on almost every 30 level because we are much more open and willing to help transgender youth feel comfortable 31 and good about being who they are.  I think that is a huge thing.  It wasnt there for me, wasnt 32 there for you.   33 
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EF: So I think well end up being dinosaurs.  I dont think youll see 55 year-olds or 53 year-olds, as in 41 my case, transitions because as youth theyll be . . .  42 
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